Category: during
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The Past
I’ve been doing some reading, and I know. I know I’m not supposed to put my energy in the past. I need my energy for now and tomorrow and tomorrow’s tomorrow… But. I still have stuff to say. Like how a facebook memory of you annoyed on vacation makes me miss you. Like how I…
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Remember?
Remember when the kids were little and they went to bed, like at a bed time? Sometimes you’d sneak out to the video store and get us a movie, stop by Dairy Queen and get us a blizzard to share. By the time you got home, I was usually done settling everyone in, nursing the…
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Bracelets on my mind
As a kid, I made embroidery floss friendship bracelets, collected jelly bracelets, and bought sailor knot bracelets at the beach. Friendship bracelets wore down slowly, jelly bracelets grew exponentially, and sailor knot bracelets had to be cut off at the end of the summer. Marriage is like a bracelet. Hear me out. A couple years…
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What’s best for the kids
I guess I’m supposed to let it go. You betrayed all of us, had an intimate, year long affair with our children’s teacher, our daughter’s friend’s mom, our sons mentor’s wife. But you want to make sure I’m doing what’s best for the kids. I guess I need to shake it off. You used me…
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Thanksgiving Anger
Maybe I can just chill out, I think. I mean, love is love. You ended up not loving me. You broke my heart but that doesn’t make you a villain. But then I remember that pandemic Thanksgiving when the kids and I tried to make things special – normal. I cooked and the boys baked…
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3×3 Post-it note
I was cleaning out a drawer today and found a 3×3 post-it note I had written when I was so scared you were going to leave me. My heart broke when I wrote the words, and I stuck the note on the inside of my pen drawer. I don’t know about this shadow of heartbreak…
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I Need a Tissue, and Other Mysterious Codes
When we first fell in love, we used to have a code for “I love you.” You know, so our parents (okay, my parents) wouldn’t hear us (okay, me) on the phone professing love at age 14. “I need a tissue.” One of us would say and maybe the other would respond with, “That is…
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Impact
You’re movingAcross the country In the movie version of this story, I think I’d proclaim, “I may have lost my husband, but you lost your whole town!” But it’s real life and I don’t really care So, instead IlaughAt my own hilarious ideas because, laughter I think of singing you The Last Goodbye at a…
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A Rainbow Bra
When I was 16 I had a rainbow bra.It was Lacy. A lacy rainbow bra. Sounds tackyracymaybe it was. But it was also sexy and fun and I loved it. One day friends were over and I was getting changed. I was in my jeans and my lacy, racy rainbow bra. Gary walked up the…
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Fatherhood Red Flag
In November of 2020, Heather decided to get a divorce. Things just weren’t “working out in her marriage.” I didn’t know at the time that the long range plan was for Gary to leave me as well, so they could move in together, share a single brussel sprout for dinner, and have orgies, with no…
Slices of Betrayal 